You remember once seeing a man standing in the middle of the road shouting, "look at me! look at me! I'm mad. Laugh all you want!" At that point, you wanted to join him so you could both shout together. But you realised you didn't have the guts. Some days, you can't help but think that you need an insane amount of courage to go insane. To give up on every thing that you ever grasped at to keep you going. Some days, you need your insanity to keep you going. Most days, that's your only consolation. Your only way to wake up in the morning and give up on everything all over again. Some days, hopelessness is what keeps you alive. You want to scream at everyone you meet about how insane you are or how crazy your head feels. You feel like clicking photos of your downward spiral, just as proof. But not as some weird call for help. Just to let everyone know that you're here, still fucking breathing. A grim reminder. An even grim celebration of your existence. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ "Look at me! Look at me! I'm mad. Laugh all you want", the mad man shouts. The mad man inside you quietly applauds. Some days, living vicariously through other people's insanity is your only sanity.
A self talk to my soul: Oh! Dear soul in the mirror, 1. Why are you always afraid of looking at me, you say that your scars on your face makes you look ugly. But why tho? You are more beautiful my girl and no one in this world is born with perfections. And just think about the people who are disabled, thank God that you are more fortune for that. . . 2. Let you concentrate on your goal of success. Make your forlorn dreams and desires to fulfill through your hard work. And yes! There will be people around you to discourage you or put you down, Oh dear! Just not let their talks affect you And remember, 'No one can become you or vice-versa'. Whenever you feel low, just come and talk to me, cry if you wanna cry, I'm always will be there for you to kill your depression. . 3. Who can ever motivate you as better as you can, do Self-motivate yourself and give life to your thoughts? I know your thoughts are more powerful and make use of it to prove yourself. . . 4. The world is so vast my dear, don't ever think of dying and hating this life. Everything happens, and the better time for you will arrive and just wait for it. Remember, the things which you get easily won't last for long and those which you get through hardships will last forever and keeps you stable by heart and mind. . . 5. Love! Oh dear, why are you getting disturbed whenever you hear this word. I know your past has killed your feelings and emotions. But don't ever forget that a lot of people are there around you who truly cares about you and want you to reach great heights. Because of one, don't let others feel hurt. "Be a freaking moon among the countless stars" . . ( Continues in comments )