✨ «Sometimes you have to kill what you love.» And that's true. You've gotta kill that tiny little piece of joy that you still love. In my dreams I am still looking for forgiveness. In my dreams I am deeper under the water fighting for resistance, fighting for coming to the surface. So let's make it easy and try to ease me thoughts by sharing these wonderful photos I took one month ago when I found this wonderful poppy field.
✨ NO LIGHT, NO LIGHT Prima di lasciare il mio Paese ho voluto scattare qualche foto con le persone a me care. L'ho voluto fare sia per imprimere l'affetto che provo nei loro confronti sia per lasciare che queste foto facciano parte della mia Storia che continuo a raccontare da tanti anni ormai. Sembra tutto così semplice quando vedi il Mondo da questa prospettiva. Dietro una macchina fotografica. Perché è solo così che riesco a dare un Senso a ciò che provo dentro di me. Anche quando la Vita comporta continue salite e continue difficoltà. Anche quando ti viene chiesto di andare avanti nonostante quel che hai lasciato continui a far parte di Te. ▲ « You are the hole in my head You are the space in my bed You are the silence in between What I thought and what I said You are the night-time fear You are the morning when it's clear When it's over you'll start You're my head, you're my heart No light, no light in your bright blue eyes I never knew daylight could be so violent A revelation in the light of day You can't choose what stays and what fades away And I'd do anything to make you stay No light, no light (No light) Tell me what you want me to say » La mia cara amica @debbiebi e i bellissimi campi di Lavanda del Montello di @mariottel_luxury_natural_style ▲
Maybe my life is meant to be that. Maybe all I can feel is too much. Maybe it is too late to think of something different when conditions and reality are completely different to what you've ever wished for. That's how life can ruin your memories but at the same time creates new ones. The more I feel the more I peel my own soul. The more I try the more I cry. The more I delate the more I create. It is just a never ending chain of events that make me wanna scream how difficult it is to feel so much into this world. All I wish is to press the "stop" button. And maybe this photo would have a meaning itself.
It's in my blood, it's in my water You try to tame me, tame me from the start When the din is in your eye, flash your flesh Desperate for a need to rise . With a silver crystal on How well you used to know how to shine In the place that's safe from harm I had been blessed with a wilder mind . You can be every little thing you want nobody to know And you can try to drown out the street below And you can call it love If you want . Beholden now I find myself awake Waiting on the edge again You sleep so sound with your mind made up Drinking from your cup of broken ends. . But I thought we believed in an endless love But I thought we believed in an endless love . It is in our hands the power of our future. It is in our hands the power to make things possible. I want to hold my camera. I want to hold my books. I want to hold the person I care about. 'Cause I know that these are the best things I have ever had in my life ❤
My life has been black and white sometimes. I could only see the black tunnel that was passing through my body and I couldn't find the exit. I tried many times to be whatever was blooming inside me but oh my, how difficult it has been. I tried but didn't succeed many times. And I regret it. I wanted to show my best side but I couldn't because I was deep into this tunnel. As long as I realized that I was living this moment I forgot love and I became fear. I was afraid of falling in love with myself. No matter who I had in front of me I couldn't see my eyes into them. I couldn't see my sparkle shining in them. I wanted to freeze memories and I wanted to live them again. And life was still black and white. I lived my journey towards understanding my inner spirit. And oh gosh I digged into myself so deeply that I understood many things of my past and my young years. My fears, my anger, my closure to the world. Then I discovered my passion again because I didn't have anything else since I was empty and alone. And I started to see life in a different way. I was looking at drawings, architecture and people in the streets in a way that I have never experienced before. I developed many different senses but inside I was still myself. I was still black and white. And I am still so. Then the chance happened. And I felt it .. I felt this whole big pressure in myself. I knew that it was right to take this chance. I knew because I dream of it many times. We dreamt it for soooo long. You don't know how much difficult it was to finally arrive to this chance. In that moment the world wanted to tell me something .. I could lead my life to something that I wasn't doing before and no matter what was happening. The dark nights, the crying, your voice I heard it in my dreams everyday. I knew that it is with acceptance, it is with compassion, it is with forgiveness that life can be colored. Colors happened in my life only in my drawings. But this whole process. This whole work towards
⭐ I started my journey just after high school. I developed feelings and emotions towards the unseen world. I wanted to make myself room into a life of infinite skies and marvellous roads. I wanted to push my limits in order to fulfill the thirst of living. Now I can firmly say that I've made it. I was brave enough to take that plane, to take with me some of my belongings, to take my heart with me and fly over the beautiful countries and land in the land of Oz. I wish I could show you the emotions that I felt during those moments. It was like a dream coming true. Buying a car big enough to carry our heavy belongings, buying a tent, a sleep mattress, a camp oven, living in the car or living in the camping zones. Watching sunrises, driving to work at dawn through the beautiful tropical forests. I can only say that these beautiful moments tattooed my heart with a very heavy mark. I know it is the same for you too. I know that if you look at those pictures I took, you can feel it too. I know that if you imagine yourself writing a novel, it would be there. In the land of Oz. Where it all started, where our hearts completed each other. It seems a song, right? It seems a wonderful glimpse of vivid life that has taught me so much that I can only say: thank you Life. You've been so kind to me during those years. But now, please be kind to me as well because I cannot face this reality anymore. I cannot think of a better way to live this life. Please. So it is now that I look up in the sky and I see a free bird flying over the woods I dictate my sanctuary. I know that one day I will be flying too. Don't know where. Don't with whom. But I will fly.
When you are the person who is always there for others - you feel a lot. You have depths within you, an ocean for a heart, and you sometimes fall for people who are afraid to swim. You give and you give and you give. And you never know how to stop from pouring into those you love. . There are moments where you are left wondering if someone will ever give you the love you so freely give to others, moments where you wonder if there will ever come a time when someone asks how you are doing, how you are coping, how you are healing. . Sometimes, the person who smiles the biggest holds the biggest hurt. Sometimes the person who encourages everyone around them need to be told they are appreciated, that they matter; sometimes they need to be encouraged, sometimes they need to be held - no matter how strong they seem, no matter how brightly they shine. . So, if you are the person who is always there for others, know that your heart is rare. Know that you hold within you an ability to calm storms in people. Know that you give people hope, that you make people feel wanted, that you make people feel like they have a purpose. . But remind yourself you are not invincibile. Your heart needs rest. You need to rest. . Words: @rainbowsalt Photo by me
The truth is that: you will NEVER be ready. You will never be ready to make that huge change in your life. You will never be ready to run away from everything. You could make countless lists of everything you need to have in order to fulfill the change. You could ask for help because you feel hopeless. You could get rid of what filled your life till now and clean your mind. You could talk to yourself everyday saying "Yes, I can do it". But the truth is no. You are not ready NOW. You weren't ready YESTERDAY. Or neither you are ready TOMORROW. It is within you what you are really looking for. It is within you that STRENGHT that make you look forward. It is within you that strenght that make you look down from the highest cliff ever and in that moment.. the heart is beating SO FAST, that moment when your body is trembling. Yeah, well it is that moment that make you JUMP over! I know I know that the trust is within us. I know that hope is the most amazing feeling ever. I try my best to share it. To give it to all of you. I wish I could hold your hand. I wish I could hold you so tight that I can feel your veins pulsing. I want to give you a look before jumping. I want to give you my truly essence through looking into my eyes and jump that cliff. In my dreams I do. In my dreams this beautiful moment seems timeless. ⭐So please, just remember that when one of the most amazing chance of your life appears to you.. Grab it. Don't feel scared. Don't feel weak. Just DON'T FEEL. Because your life is so precious. Your life is so special that it is worth doing so. Believe me. It is worth ❤
In my dreams I travel the world to reach you. In my dreams I conquer my deepest fears to reach you. In my dreams I see fire in my heart, I see that flame still burning like crazy. In my dreams I hug the world to feel your warmth. In my dreams I see the light of the sunrise shining over my eyes. I see life outside this messy world. This messy life that I have. In my vivid dreams I won't let you fly away from me. I won't let you run over your darkest fears. In my dreams I keep you within me in my world and don't let anybody ruin that moment. Because I know for sure that world can fall apart but I HAVE YOU and it is the most important thing. In my dreams I won't let you skip the chance to see me getting old. In my dreams I don't need to ask I just need to be. We are who we are. We don't pretend, we don't let the world scare us. In my dreams. In my dreams. In my dreams I smile for our stupidness.. In my dreams I see that light that push me over to you. And from there everything is simply magical. I know that reality is what it is. But I still believe in dreams. I still believe in fairytales. It is thanks this that helped me be who I am and have what I have now! ❤
I fear. I fear of losing everything. I fear that the beauty of my soul would crack into pieces. I fear that moment when I will forget everything. I fear I won't feel the same. . . And you know you're never sure But you're sure you could be right If you held yourself up to the light . . And the embers never fade in your city by the lake The place where you were born Believe, believe in me, believe In the resolute urgency of now
I believe in fairytales. I know that I grew up with them. And I thought that my life could have been one of the best story I would ever told to anybody when getting older. And now I believe I still have more to share. I don't see an ending to my growings. I see hope that give me the strenght to fight till the universe will stop me. I take time for my mind to heal the crazyiness of this life right now. It is hard for you to believe that I still don't know how to keep up with this world. Everything seems such heavy sometimes. I wish this world would be easier. I wish I could hear more "yes" and less "no". And I know that moment will arrive to me one day. I opened myself to the world since when I was born and I know it will take time to reach my goals. I know. Everything is just too much now. I am taking time. I mean it. I still cannot use words to express myself. I am taking time to slow down and be present.
⭐ Andate nel bosco, andate. . . Se non andate nel bosco NULLA mai accadrà e la vostra vita non avrà inizio. . . Andate nel bosco, andate, andate nel bosco! . . Lascia che il tempo scorra e delinei la tua strada ma non perderti. Sii la guida della tua stessa strada. Sii la bussola della tua stessa meta. Riporta in carreggiata ciò che hai perso lungo il tuo percorso. Ma non sforzare nulla. Se ciò che hai perso continua a perdersi è segno che devi mollare la presa. Concentra la tua forza in ciò che ha LUCE non in ciò che si è SPENTO.
✴ Time is never time at all You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth And our lives are forever changed We will never be the same The more you change the less you feel Believe, believe in me, believe . That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain We're not the same, we're different tonight Tonight, so bright Tonight . The indescribable moments of your life tonight The impossible is possible tonight Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight
✴ Sometimes I just stare myself in front of the mirror. I see myself changed. I became more adult inside and more indipendent. I see the changes that affected my life the past months. I see the traits of a woman that is still growing and doesn't want to hide herself behind her insecurities. I feel like there is no peace in this world. There won't be a moment where your mind and you body are completely aligned. It is so difficult nowadays. It is so difficult to find that moment that sometimes I am angry to this world. I just cannot keep up the rhythm of it. Sometimes all I want is stop and stare to the world that surrounds me. I just want to feel fully complete. I just want people to feel what I sense inside. It is just the purest form of compassion. It just the purest form of happiness inside myself that wants to be shared. Sometimes I just stare to the wonderful mountains I have behind my home. I look at the top of them. I know one day I would reach that top of the mountain and would feel super strong. As far as I know now.. I just need to be present. No matter what are my desires and possibilities. I just need to take care of myself ❤
❗OBJECT IN MIRROR ARE CLOSER THAN THEY APPEAR ❗Dreams in reality are closer than they might appear. Your vision dictates your reality. Surround yourself by positivity. Make room for your own desires daily. Fill up a page with your short and long-term goals. Stick it on your desk as it will be your manifesto from now on. Day by day you will realize that the more your look at that page the closer to your dreams you will be. As far as this long process would it be, now my dreams look closer than I would ever imagined. How about yours? ⭐
🌞 One last kiss from me yeah One last kiss good night . Didn't want to lose you once again Didn't want to be your friend Fulfilled a promise made of tin Crawled back to you . . Time flies. Even when you are living the most difficult situation. Time gives us the beat of our own life. It is a matter of being able to face it and get the most of it. I know that in the last months I have been fighting my time. Having so many troubles matching my duties with my social life such as relaxing, enjoying a movie with friends, taking a walk in the countryside. It has been crazy! But I made it. Time is not an enemy is my CONSTANT. It is an illusion and it gives me the chance to remember very good memories as well. This time five years ago I was catching a flight to the other side of the world and it felt AMAZINGLY GOOD! Remembering those emotions gives me goosebumps. I let the time flows and hope that moment happens again. 💕
💕 . You and me Meant to be Immutable Impossible It's destiny Pure lunacy Incalculable Inseparable . And for the last time You're everything that I want and asked for You're all that I dream Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love Protected and the lover of . A pure soul And beautiful You Don't understand Don't fear me now I will breath For the both of us Travel the world Traverse the skies Your home is here Within my heart . And for the first time I feel as though I am REBORN in my mind Recast as child and mystic sage . Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love . For the first time I'm telling how much I NEED and BLEED for Your every move and waking sound in my time I'll wrap my wire around your heart And your mind You're mine forever now Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for Who wouldn't be the one you love . 💕